Relief. And a wonky blanket.

This week has been a pretty quiet one for me. I guess I could say that about last week, or last month... So many things have gone on in my life that I'm not sure I want to talk about here. But I am finding if I don't talk about them, I don't talk about anything. So I might be straying away from crafty/family posts sometimes, and writing about what's really on my mind.

There were three stressful events for me this week. The first was meeting with our accountant to do the school PTA's taxes. That is over and done with, and I feel like a hundred pounds were lifted off of my back. I don't mind being treasurer, but sometimes I just don't want the responsibility that comes along with it.

The second stressful event was meeting with my doctor to start a new medication for my Behcet's Disease. I still am not fully comfortable with even acknowledging that I have this, and here I am starting a medicine that I will take every day. I have been dealing with symptoms by taking prednisone, but the jitters and insomnia have officially gotten to me, and I realize that it is time to try something new. Even if it means going to the doctor and admitting I'm not totally healthy. That is really hard for me. I have been putting off this visit for a while, but I am hopeful that I will be symptom free with this new medicine. It's time to at least give it a try.

The third stressful event was a bilateral breast sonogram I had done yesterday. When I saw my doctor in May she wrote a script for this because of cysts, and I have been in denial/putting it off for way too many months. I finally came to my senses and went in. I graciously agreed to let a clueless radiology intern practice on me, a decision I quickly came to regret. It took forever, she didn't know what she was doing, and I had to lay there and listen to the radiologist explain the masses to here, and show her how to measure them, and type it all in. Ugh. By the time she was done I had managed to completely freak myself out. I was certain I had cancer, and was going to die because I put it off for so long, and my children wouldn't remember me...

But I got a call this morning, and the cycts are benign. I need to follow up with a mammogram and another sonogram in 6 months. What relief! I got off the phone and just started sobbing.

I plan on spending the rest of today relaxing. I am attempting to make a blanket out of felted sweaters. I'm having quite the adventure, trying to square up these wonky squares, and make something that looks presentable. We'll see how it turns out. It will be warm at least.

Thanks for letting me vent a little.

And have a great weekend.

Comments

[Sarah]

(((Breanna)))) Hopefully things will even out soon and the stress will let up a bit.

[Emily]

venting is important, now, try to relax!!Love ya...E

[Kristina]

As a sister Behcet's sufferer, I am interested to know what your new medication is. If all goes well, are you planning to get off the Prednisolone entirely?

I've been taking Pred.. for 16 years and have several side effects, including muscle weakness & recently muscle pain as well.

[Kristina]

ps. I like your square, wonky squares. Good idea. I too like crafts and have just started a patchwork/quilting workshop.

[Cindy]

Breanna, when I work with felted patches they always stretch and end up wonky. A little trick I have learned to make them more like squares is to iron them (especially the seams) this makes them lie flatter and squarer. I then use my ruler and cutting wheel and make it square.

Glad all is well with you and cannot wait to see it all done.

[vallen Queen]

Oh, to know someone as precise as you is having wonky squareness - well, it makes me feel much better about myself. I have tried my darnedest to do this very thing but find that wonkiness prevails.
I hope for you that all your wonkiness (healthwise) subsides.
Hugs and felted squareness to you.